10.24.10

Wow....Blogger....hello old friend. It's been a while.  And to all two (?) of you still reading this blog, hello. I am ressurecting this page.. well probably only for today.. because I don't like loose strings untied and I want to formally express my gratitude to this page for being a way to record different things that went on in my life over the past few years (it's pretty dang fun to go back and read) and to put a THE END on this last "chapter" of my life (soooo cliche, but whatever).

I am now working four days a week, keeping up (or at least trying to) with all of my VCC classes, babysitting my (adorable) nephew every week, part of two college ministries, possibly switching churches (my family has already, and so I now have to decide if I'm staying or going..wayyy harder than it sounds), most likely moving internationally (!!!!) next Spring to teach English, starting to make plans to apply for UCF Art School next fall, falling head over heels for literature analysis (no, seriously, I love it), trying desperately to stay in touch with all of my friends (it sucks really badly when I don't see them quite as often as I used to), trying to get my health problems resolved, and am at times so overwhelmed I just feel like running in circles and endlessly hitting a punching bag and yelling things I wouldn't normally and finishing off a whole gallon of icecream. You know, recently I had a meltdown and cried into a sock for a while, until I realized it was my brother's and it was dirty (sooo gross, I pretty much boiled my face after that). 

So yes, the past several months have been the hardest time of my life, but it has been beautiful (in it's own weird little way) and I have learned a lot, such as 1) get a tissue next time, 2) think again and think critically...push yourself and you'll be better for it, and 3) God has been faithful...and ummm, guess what...He will be again.  This isn't easy (at least for me) to accept sometimes, because..let's be real.. it sometimes seems otherwise. Keyword: Seems. But, when all is said and done in a situation, God's faithfulness is proven and it is mind-blowing. Like, ka bam.